It's amazing what a huge difference it makes to have one's home filled with one's own belongings. Certainly, this has been a huge milestone for all of us. It is wonderful to have our own sheets, pillows and kitchen supplies. Not to mention all of Isabel's things. What a huge difference in her disposition the day our stuff arrived. She is more happy to spend time playing on her own and just enjoying all of 'her' things. Suddenly, our apartment feels so much more like home. It has all the little details that make it ours. I had no idea that this could have such an enormous impact on day to day life.
I continue to be amazed by the generosity and kindness of people here -- everyone we have met is eager to help with whatever we might need. And for someone who does not speak the language, the willingness to understand my attempts has been so reassuring -- it makes learning Spanish a joy rather than a hardship. I have officially begun lessons and this will for sure ease the transition to feeling a stronger sense of community. I am relieved (to say the least) that everyone is so forgiving with my poor attempts. The other day I learned that everytime the security guard called up to let us know there was a visitor; rather than saying "let them pass/come up" (que suba), I was saying 'pasado' (which literally means: passed tense)... perhaps I was living a little with my head/heart in the past and needed a kick to get into the present moment. Whatever the root cause, I certainly am happy to have learned the appropriate term, and even more amazed that the guards so generously forgave my poor translation and made such effort to accept this attempt as the correct form. It saved me a lot of hardship of having to explain myself.
As I continue to learn more, I imagine that I will move through both peaks and valleys of understanding the nuances of another language/culture. For now, I have been blessed with people who are generous of heart and do not mind my naive errors and ignorance. Isabel is also beginning to show more and more curiousity about Spanish -- asking to learn new words each day. To be certain, the day is not far off when her comprehension will far exceed mine and I will be unable to offer her a response to her questions. But for now, we are enjoying learning all the simple things; and I am so lucky that she is both my eyes and ears for exploring this new environment. It ensures that I take things more slowly, and forces me to be fully present in the experience.
The other day I had a revelation, as I sat totally exhausted from a day of play/activity with Isabel -- being with her takes more energy than many other things because there is no excuse to escape. It is about truly and completely being in the now. It is about participating in life at this specific moment... not dreaming of the future, or relishing in the past, or whatever other escape our life and mind offers to us. As I embraced the power of this concept, I was amazed at how much it helped me shift my frame of mind. I had been feeling as if time was eluding me and with all the requirements of being a full-time mom in a new city there was little of it left for me. And suddenly I realised that this moment is for me... and Isabel challenges me to live it to its fullest in whatever form it might present myself. I may not get to yoga class every weekend... but I can still enjoy a different kind of yoga with Isabel. The photo above, in some sense, captures the feeling of this revelation for me: it is about moving through a tunnel, with light peaking through at every angle... pausing, not rushing, living fully and completely.
It is as if every emotion is magnified through the experience of the child -- the joys, the fears, the disappointments, the new adventures, the inhibitions, the confidence... It is pure magic -- in its chaos, in its exhaustion, and in its raw purity.
| Isabel looking out the window of one of the local pubs (Bogotá Beer Company) in our neighbourhood where we drank fresh mango juice on a lazy Friday afternoon. |